There’s just so many ideas forming in my mind. I’ll enumerate the very concrete ones ::
1) God. I need to study this sem-break.
I finally find the time to advance read my lessons. Noli me Tangere being at the very top, followed by Geom. then my English book.
2) I need to get out more.
Seriously. I’m bored outta my shell. I spend idle time doing impeccable stuff. All this time at home makes me want to eat more (which brings us to:)
3) I need to re-start my anorexia/dieting.
I gained 10 pounds over the month of OCTOBER. I hate OCTOBER now. I’m now an aspiring vegetarian.
4) I need to go to the gym.
I need to hype up myself. Goodness. I want to feel that unbearable pain in my abdomen, triceps, biceps, deltoids, shoulders… every single part of my body that hurt during the time i DID go to gym. (which was like… 1 month ago.)
5) I need to save up some money.
Roughly 3 months to save up for our prom hotel rooms and after-party stuff. I’m SO thankful that CHRISTMAS is a time for GIVING (cough*money*cough).
6) I need to refurbish my iTunes.
My last computer had 3000 songs in it. This one’s only got… like 600… and that’s literally pushing it.
7) I need a new wardrobe.
I mean, come ON! My old clothes look like walk–mall–get-out–work-out–do-stuff–in pyjamas! It’s driving my head through the roof. My dad’s literally hiding his clothes, coz’ i keep *borrowing* them out of his closet. haha. The wonders of losing weight.
I gotta find my hairstyle.
I am SO damn tired of TRYING to look in the mirror every day and getting to use 1 GALLON (exaggerating) of gunk just to get my hair the way i want it too (which, isn’t at all that much good either). I need to DO THIS.
9) I gotta start really putting effort into writing my manuscript.
I don’t know really. I’ve worked on 10 manuscripts, and 5 of them didn’t go past chapter 1 (with prologue), 3 didn’t go past chapter 5, and the other two didn’t get past 10. I really NEED to do this, if I plan to try and get rich-ER by the time i’m eighteen. 
(plus, that palanca award i’m raring to get. or the pulitzer… whichever comes my way… hahahaha. WAY WAY dreamer)
10) I need to START and get STICKERS for my STARBUCKS DIARY.
Ever since SB’s became my everyday elixir of life, (ever since 3rd year.) I’ve been itching to finally get some of thos small card thinggys with those matching christmas stickers.
11) CHRISTMAS SHOPPING
I need to shop for all those gifts and all. Just… I REALLY NEED TO DO THIS.
12) Bonifacio HIGH STREET
I really need to go here with some friends. I can’t spend the entire break without setting foot here ONCE. I’ll kill myself if i don’t. I wanna peruse the inventory of FULLY BOOKED so much.
13) I need to give my parents more credit than I’m giving them now.
Ever since that incident… and ever since yesterday… I’ve been thinking a lot about how I’m such an ass about ALWAYS caring for WHAT I NEED, WANT and FEEL… that I sometimes forget about my parents. I gotta show them I love them MORE now that I’ve finally (hopefully) realized how much we hang on to life by a thread.
14) I seriously need to re-think my preferences-slash-priorities
Sometimes, i really need to give myself a REALITY check. Come on.
15) I need to SELL my old phone.
I need the greens, instead of a spare phone looking at me everyday.
16) Appreciate more what my friends are doing for me…
To those people who were in the wake last friday… those who stayed up until night. For those who listened to my “life story”? hahah. Thanks very much.
17) Appreciate more what my REAL friends are doing/have done for me…
I said to myself that I wouldn’t post anything related to that issue… but sure, one last thing about that before I officially start my sem-break.
I just realized really, how much I’ve done. How wrong I was. AND how unappreciative I was for her… I remembered the times when she’d listen to me about my problematic rantings… all those things about wanting to look better and feel better… that AIDS thing… That hope and strength she’d given me to be more secure and certain about myself. I can’t believe how stupid I am for not even thanking her for that… and I even had the nerve of offending her so much.
So, if you know who you are, and you know that you’re the one I’m talking about. I’ve just got one last thing to say.
I’m Sorry.
No more flowering words. No more uncalled for elegant and pompous use of words.
I’m sincere.
I guess I’ll stop here.
I gotta go rest…
Still a big day tomorrow.
Happy break to all
Stay happy. Be happy.
P.S.
1) For Norence — you should take care of yourself. Try to not remember, but also try not to forget. Some wounds are too deep sometimes to be healed fast… but the only thing you have to remember is that IT WILL.
2) For Janine — nangangati ka nanaman. Come on! Kaya mo yan!
3) For Kaecy — PANALO KA NA! Lagay ko ah! —- Shet. Este… — Good luck tom.
4) For Shairra — SAGUTIN MO NA SIYA!
5) For Amanda — thanks for everything. I really appreciate it. <3 you!
6) For Francis — thanks for buying us that new car. Para lang pala nung sat. un eh
7) For Raplh C. — thanks for talking to me last Sat. you might not have noticed but you helped me a lot.
THEA — no words… could ever say how much I’m thankful for how you’ve treated and talked to me.
9) BEA — thanks for being so brutally frank and honest with your feelings… ESPECIALLY about what you think of my problems.
10) AVA — thanks for pointing that out. I’ll get botox soon. And yea… haha. STAY happy, don’t let him feel bad all over again.
11) Hannah — thanks for last friday. REALLY REALLY appreciate it.
12) Andrea Alonzo — thanks for the kakulitan and the pagpapatawa. It really helped. 
13) Jorja — Thanks for being there. To listen, and to comment. It helps. A LOT.
14) Ranelle — no one could’ve asked for a better cousin at school. Thanks for your flowing advice and for listening to me. Hope you’ll always stay the same!
15) Cyrus — thanks for the advice and for listening… kahit na napasama lang ako sa advice mo. (hello. Ikaw ung huli na nag-suggest nun no! Wag mong ituro sa ibang apat na nag-suggest rin nun) [don't make my IQ drop 10 points everytime I talk you. Okay?]
16) Era Soriano — Even though i know you hate me. I love my seatmate. Thanks for putting up with me, and trying to make me smile. No school day is complete without me seeing your hug the darkness. thanks.
17) Gaon — i forgot what I’ll thank you for. I’ll just say it. THANK YOU.
18) Miguel — thanks a LOT for advices, for everything. I’ll never ever forget how stupid I am when I talk to you. Thanks for that!
19) Ria Panganiban — I couldn’t even find the words on how to thank you regarding how much you’ve helped and advised me over all of this. You know everything about it, and you are such a nice and caring person (even if I haven’t seen you in person). Sorry for what I did today… It’s just that my cousin was doing her *i have no idea what* on the computer. Sorry!
20) Tita Norly — I really appreciate everything you said last Friday night. It felt so good just to hear those things. Remember, you’re STRONG.
21) Angge — thanks for reading my poem and commenting on it, kahit na di ko nagawa un sa sayo. (you know why!)
22) Jouella — thanks for putting up with me… kahit sobra akong mang-asar. Just stay HOLY and stay a MAMA MARY!
23) Song-hee — Thanks a lot for always being there. Especially when it comes to (insert two names here). hahahaha. I’m really grateful that I came to know you this schoolyear.
24) My BELOVED HE GROUPMATES — I know sakit ako ng ulo esp. to Hannah! But, thanks for putting up with me the whole quarter… and even though we only got like 500 pesos… we still have something Thanks a lot
25) Benjamin Marinas — THANK you for spending those IDLE times with me. Thanks for always letting me hitch a ride with you, and spending time with me to kill my boredom (not that I resort to talking to you when i’m bored… Really no offense.)
I’m sorry… there’s a lot more… but I really have to stop here… I’m like writing a last farewell thing.
Wouldn’t want to make the wrong impression.
I love you guys!
