God. I wish I could give up writing. I wish I could give up my love for poetry. I wish I could give up AIDS (oh wait, shit. I can’t give that up.) I wish I could give up geom. A lot of things, GOD, I wish to give up.
There’s just so many things that’s going through my head right now. I want to do EVERYTHING at the same exact moment. There’s so many things I want to do that I don’t even have the courage of doing…
Did you ever feel like you’ve been waiting for the rest of your life just to get to that point wherein the perfect disaster you’ve always pictured never to happpen… just did.
I’m hell confused right now.
But one thing’s for sure. I’ll never let go.
To whoever’s reading this. I can only think of two possible reactions to this post — Apalled, because I’m being so melodramatic… or Relieved, that I finally get the picture of my life.
Amidst everything – Every single emo-drenched word I write in here… I’m still smiling. Smiling at the possible fact that I’ll finally be able to say what I truly feel.
~ to hope.
