Revisiting My 5 Greatest Griefs of 2007
1)
It was like… August or September. I asked at least ten people if they were real friends.
All of them had a recurring “yes” for a reply, and assured me that they’d be there, no matter whenever, whatever and whoever comes into the picture.
Of those people. I’ve had the greatest disappointments this year.
It’s just so sad, to ask for something that should be given unconditionally and voluntarily.
These people know who they are.
I was disappointed… sorry for being dramatic, but everytime someone does something to me of that magnitude… I just keep on thinking that other people might do it to me too. If you treat me like garbage, like a left-over piece of meat… then why not them?
I wasn’y angry. For the grief and disgust that I must’ve caused you, I apologize.
A New Year. A Fresh Start. — This isn’t just for me, mates.
Live Like You Mean It, Be True Friends and Don’t Fake It. I’ll always be here, even if you guys won’t
2)
The Great Pretenders
People who caused people so kind of pain, and then goes on with their lives as thought nothing happens… seeks refuge in them if something happens, and then still continue on as if nothign happened.
You know what. Please stop.
I used to think that it’s all my fault.
For not being good enough. For not being just enough to suit who you are and who the people around you are.
I think, this year. I’m past that now.
I’ll leave you behind. I’m keeping from growing because I always think of these people.
They don’t value me enough as to apologize to me if they’d done something wrong… but they just have to repeat what they did to me.
You still matter to me, whoever you people are. But what doesn’t matter is what you do. I’m sick and tired. All this energy I spent trying to make you realize… is just… wasted.
[Live on. Don't Change. Then Die Immediately]
3)
The Second Options
I’m not a second option.
It’s either you choose me the first time, or to never at all.
I might sound all proud, but nobody really wants to be the “fallback”
We want to be liked for who we are, not just because people are forced to like us, for their sake.
One word for you people… “USERS” (this actually brings us to…)
4)
…USER-FRIENDLY
I resent what you make of me, but i still don’t blame you.
After all, that’s the purpose of friends, isn’t it? Use them, in hopes that someday, they’ll be of some use to you.
Get a move on mate; You’re going to lose this battle.
5)
Dictators
Love is one thing. Authority is another.
Just don’t act accding to what the person you love or what the person you work for thinks of me.
You are a human being, and the least you could do is to weigh things first with yourself. It’s not that they think me as a piece of crap, that you have to think that same thing of me.
You have you’re own outlook. You have you’re own life.
Don’t let them dictate what you think.
You’ll lose yourself.
When you lose yourself… Then I can’t trust you anymore that you’ll be there for me… to trust me.
Loser. Sociopath. You bloody git.
AND… (extra)
Myself.
I don’t know why, but I’m acting all too much of everything.
I’ll change. I should. I will.
The Top 10(or more) Friends I Care the MOST About
1) Norence Aaron P. Tan — even though you’re there, you’re the only one i’m ever going to confess my whole self to. Nobody else will ever get to know me and to USE me as much as you. For you, I am eternally greatful.
2) Danielle Magpantay & Ava Pacleb — when Norence left, you guys were the ones who listened to me. All those moments i spent with you guys… you listening to my unending emotional ranting… Just… I’m really really grateful for that.
3) Benjamin Marinas — trust me when I say this. I’ve been sometimes a git to you… and I apologize for that… but you’re part of the very few guys in class,.. who really speak their mind… and has their own conviction. You have everythign to be proud for. Don’t think of what they’re saying behind your back… or the disappointments they bring you. Just this :: People are only worth it if they fall in sympathy for you. If they simply don’t care… then you might as well drop them. (blunt. tactless, i know. But its the truth)
4) Eduardo Gaspar — it’s nice to have gotten to know you more this year. Great guy. Speaks his mind… blunt, honest, and always surprisingly tactful with words. You don’t let your emotions get a hold of what is expected of you. ONly one thing… please be more of an optimist. 
5) Giselle Jose — i’ve been a real pain and a disappointment. But trust me. You’re the only one who made me change things about me that I didnt even bother to think of before. You’re a great person. You should know that. [AIDS -- i wish this was back], [ET,QT,RT -- i still wish that we could do these things ESPECIALLY R.T.]
6) Amanda Palileo — You. I can’t even describe in my big arsenal of words how much i’m grateful for you. You’ve been there… all the time… but I wasn’t just maybe listening. I promise to do better.
7) Janine Noblezada, Shairra Bello, Racela Abundo, Bea Ragasa (the Malditas) — I love you guys so much. to nine, shai and ras. That conversation we had in Serendra saved my periodical exams. (really… I was so depressed that I really didn’t have any intention of even reviewing). Bea Ragasa. Thanks a lot… for Props… for everything. You’ve been great… <3 You four!
Noel Hingco, Stephan Domingo, Ed Concepcion, Francis Dimagiba, Joshua Magsombol, Karl Gaverza, Sanjeev Gangwani, Miguel Perez, Joshua Lim — listening ears. Advice-givers. Palm-reader. You guys are the best.
9) The Amazing Jorja Pajares, Jodi Llanto, Bernadette Santua, Celina Hermogenes — <3 HE groupmates. hahaha. You are the most impressive, most best group I’ve ever had.
10) Andrea Alonzo, Andrea Altarejos, Kaecy Dandan — thanks. I appreciate the laughs. All the laughs. All the thoughts. All the chats. I am grateful.
Top 30 Songs
1) The Great Escape — Boys Like Girls
2) Heels on Head — Boys Like Girls
3) Bubbly — Colbie Calliat
4) HeroHeroine — Boys Like Girls
5) On Top of the World — Boys Like Girls
6) Before Its Too Late — The Goo Goo Dolls
7) Your Guardian Angel — Red Jumpsuit Appratus
Misery Business — Paramore
9) How Far We’ve Come — Matchbox Twenty
10) I’m Like a Lawyer With the Way… (Me+You) — Fall Out Boy
11) Comatose — Skillet (props to Dani M.)
12) Delilah — Plain White Ts
13) The Take Over, the Break’s Over — Fall Out Boy
14) Thnks fr th Mmrs — Fall Out Boy
15) How to Save a Life — The Fray
16) Over My Head — The Fray
17) This is My Now — Jordin Sparks
18) Clothes Off — Gym Class Heroes
19) Tattoo — Jordin Sparks
20) When I’m Gone — Simple Plan
Top 5 Soundtrack Musical Scores
1) The Devil Wears Prada Suite (The Devil Wears Prada) – Theodore Shapiro
2) Attack on Dollet (Final Fantasy VIII) — Nobuo Uematsu
3) Sayuri’s Theme (Memoirs of a Geisha) — John Williams
4) Gladiator Theme (Gladiator) — ?
5) Lord Of the Rings Themes (Lord of the Rings Trilogy) — ?
Top 5 Single Male Artists
1) Josh Groban
2) John Meyer
3) John Legend
4) Enrique Iglesias
5) Andrea Bocelli
